|| this day i was born ||

I survived another year, another back stab, another lie, another teasing voice, another scar, another bleed, another snuff-snuff, another heart break. 

I am a danger for MYSELF!!

 I've become a maniac!! 

Just take me away please.. 

I wanna be happy, I wanna be appreciated for once. 

I wish I close my eyes tonight, forever! 

Think problems have become my best friend! 

So.. Hell is where I live! . . .

|| Broken Yet Holding On ||

I can see you walkin' out
I'm not tryna believe it
There's no way that this can be for real, I'm dreamin' I can see the water in your eyes
You don't have to do this
There has got to be a better way, I know it..
Back up the day now
What did I do to get us to, this point
Me losing you, in this moment
I feel it, deep in my chest
I can't breathe...

I can't let go
Broken yet holding on
To you, to us
This love is too strong for me to let go
Broken yet holding on..

Afraid everything is over now
The rain cloud is passing
Still I'm tryna wonder how I lost you
Are you really over me?
You said so, don't believe it..
You are where I wanna be, I love you..
We said we'll never give up
In hard times
When we hit bottom
We'll try to find the broken pieces of love.. 

|| ..forever and almost always.. ||

So the story goes on down
The less traveled road
It's a variation on
The one I was told
And although it's not the same
It's awful close, yeah

In an ordinary fairy tale land
There's a promise of a perfect happy end
And I imagine having just short of that
Is better than nothing

So you'll be mine
Forever and almost always
And I'll be fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up every day
Just hoping that you still care

In the corner of my mind I know too well
Oh that surely even I deserve the best
But instead of leaving
I just put the issue to bed
And outta my head

Oh and just when I believe
You've changed for good
Well you go and prove me wrong
Just like I knew you would

When I run out of second chances
You give me that look
And you're off the hook

Because you're mine
Forever and almost always
And I'm fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up every day
Just hoping that you still care

Oh, what am I still doing here?
Oh, it's all becoming so clear

You'll be mine
Forever and almost always
It ain't right to just love me when you can
Oh I won't wait patiently
Or wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care

Forever and almost always
No it ain't right
To just love me when you can, baby
Ain't gonna wait patiently
I won't wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care

:D

||Xx.. The Wish I Had Sent ..xX||

To whom to ask, why is it so,
this world is, as if mute..

Where to find moments of joy,
Even time is like without a sign..
  There are complaints on so many lips,
there are many distances from the life..
Why do the dreams dampen in eyes,
when the line leaves these hands, for no reason..

The wish I had sent,
that collided with the sky such that
a call has come back..
  where have the breaths turned their face,
I don't see any path..
where has the heartbeat left the heart,
and where have these bodies left (their) shadows..

I, here, think this again and again..
a smoke of memories is walking with me..
  The wish I had sent,
that collided with the sky such that
a call has come back..

#tera saath bohot yaad aata hai!!

Jab badal rahe the hum , tere kehne pe..
Sab kuch ajeeb laga raha tha,
Nahi maloom tha *kitno ka saath chorna padega..*

Nahi mloom tha *kis kis ka haath thaamna padega..*
Woh tere chehre ko dekh ke aankhon ka bhar aana..
Poocho dil se kitna roone ka dil karta hai..
Tere saath bohot yaad aata hai,
Tera saath bohot yaad aata hai!!

|| MOOD: Damn Girl I Miss 'US' ||

Dedicated To Anusha !

Tumhare gale lagane mein ab woh pehle jaisi baat na rahi.. 

Na rahi woh haasi, na rahi woh ek dusre ko bina kuch kahe samajh jane wali samajhdariya

Na rahe woh 'secret' guftugu ke silsile 

Na rahi woh haath mein haath thaam ke chalne wali aada..

Na rahi woh "mai hu na tere liye" wale pyaare alfaaz..

Na rahe woh apnepan ke jazbaat..

Kuch lamho mein badal gaya sab kuch.. 

Kisi aur ki wajah se tune chodha mera saath..

Woh aakhri guftugu mein tera kehna, "Sab kuch bhool ke hum sab maze kar rahe the.!!"

Dil ko chubbh si gayi thi teri woh baat!

Ab na raha tera sahara, 

Ab na raha tera bharosa,

Aakhir tu bhi chor gaya aye DOST...

Iss bhari bheedh mein tanha kar diya tune aye DOST...

TUMHARE GALE LAGANE MEIN AB WOH PEHLE JAISI BAAT NA RAHI..

Na rahi..

Na rahi..