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I Love You...

Those words are said too easily these days.

Do we really know what they mean?

Kids dating say them after a few weeks.

Girls say them about a crush.

Women say them about a dress.

The words have been trivialized.

They have been made insincere by misuse. 

Love – what is it really?

Sometimes I feel so cold inside,

Like a lost thing wishing someone would just find me.

Sometimes I feel so lost.

The world goes on by without me.

Sometimes I just watch wondering

If I should join in the games people play and other times

I lead the games laughing as others stand in the middle lost.

But then I remember,

I remember the cold times, the lonely times,

And I curl into myself shivering.

How can life...how can I be this cruel? 

When will I ever be loved? Will I ever be worthy of love?

Why...why am I not worthy of love?

Am I so wounded...so far gone?

Do I deserve to be loved?

What is love? 

What does love mean?

I love you...such trivial words...

So easy to say...mean so little...

We throw them around at the drop of a hat.

Why? What do we really mean? Shouldn't we mean them when we say them?

Shouldn't they be important to us? To the people we say them to?

I don't know love...

I know pain.

I know hate.

I know pity.

I know wounds.

I know regret.

I know lust.

I know hurt.

I know anger.

I know denial.

I know loss.

I know all these things...

One day, I hope to be touched by love.

By something...kind...gentle...caring...

Something real. Someone real. Someone who loves me.

-unknown lover© 

I write these words in silence.. xoxo :'(

I really hope you're listening
Because this is the beginning
Of what will lead to the end

 You, me,
We then,
Were here.
We saw the day and hoped for tomorrow.
We caught a brief glimpse of love's promise.
We were not liars,
But thieves of time.
For now time has now forgotten us,
Yet our memory lingers, and love remembers
This place that was ours.


Now here we are
alone in togetherness
trying to build dreams
with two by fours and glue,
but even a home
won't tie us together
when our hearts live alone

Poetic vows cliched
into nothingness
like all words do, eventually
and we allowed
our bodies to become
another pair of hollow shadows
that make love to a wall
instead of each other
and we wonder why
the roses are dying


You tell me that you love me
When I go to leave
You tell me I'm your only one
And I let myself believe


I know that you are using me
But you'll never let me go
I know that you don't love me
I know I'm just for show

I don't know If I can stand
To see you love another girl
You know that you broke my heart
You know that your my world

But while your standing by my side
I'll believe your lies forever
Cause everything seems so perfect
When we are together



Somewhere beyond the flossy clouds
Cupid has lost his romancing arrows
Plays sad sonorous tunes on his bow
Dedicated to all weepy lonely hearts

Every night i talk to the stars
pretending its you..
 it acts just like you tho..
far away and never
never replies to my questions..

You think I'm just crazy
I know It's true
You act like you think so all the time
And Sometime later I'll beg to differ
But at the moment I'm too senseless to care
Yes I'm far out there, too senseless to care.

My heart is a million broken pieces,
Just like shards of glass that the eyes can't see.
I try to put it back together,
But it only cuts me.

I bleed so bad because the cuts are so deep,
So I give up.
As I stare in the mirror, what do I see?

Stay with the million pieces of me,
Or go to another dimension and find the rest of me?
Time is up, and I must decide.
So I take a leap of faith and hope and pray,
That putting me back together,
I can become whole and my soul will be found. 

xoxo... {misya}

what more should i say..??

{..haPpeEe wALa b0rn daY LOVE..} 20th Feb, 2012

Within you, I’ve found the perfect person
Someone who I know will be there till the end
And they’re not just thoughts I hope will fulfill
But thoughts that will stand forever still

Still as the wind on a hot summer’s day
Still as your friendship I’ll never betray
Still as the characters in a photograph
Still as your breathless, silent laugh

Within you, I’ve found the perfect friend
A mind that I can comprehend
A person I see is so much like me
A mutual relationship so carefree

Carefree as a child who questions the world
Carefree as a scream that goes unheard
Carefree as an adult blessed with a dream
Carefree as water flowing downstream

Within you, I’ve found the perfect lover
With whom I can be real, and never pretend
You’ve always been someone unique from the rest
You hold a piece of me no other can possess

Within you is reason to live every moment in time
Within you the life I want is always mine
Within you, I have the perfect friend
With you, I see myself till the very end...

 so here's to yew love/..

[(hIs tEaRs)]

18th March, 2012

8:54 pm </3

He was sitting there all by himself, looked into his eyes ... they said he was not fine.. I wished to sit beside him && hold his hand and say that i am there for him forever and always. But somethings held me where i was.... His eyes became teary and in no time the salty water  started rushing through his beautiful brown eyes... I wished to run towards him to hug tight && say "Boy everything's alright".. && again something held me back.. A lady gave him the tissue to wipe his teaRs.. He looked at the lady with a face full of emotions && cried even more.. He took out a red rose from his pocket... Kept it at a grave.. which read the name as *LaZeE bUmM*..

so at the end 

• i gotta know he cared for me.. but he dint tell me when i was alive...
• i gotta know he would miss me.. but he never told me...
• i gotta know he would cry.. when i was dead...
• i gotta know he loved me.. BUT AS ALWAYS HE was regretting not telling it to me.!!!

{hUrt}

[( ♥ you and i ♥ )]